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Forgiveness

Wrote this while on my flight...

Nearly a year ago, I made a decision that I thought was best for myself. Some of my closest friends really encouraged it to happen, others really didn’t know the situation but supported me anyways and those that were impacted just want what’s best. However a part of me feels like I made a mistake but another part of me is really proud of what has transpired. Overall, I owe it to myself to forgive myself and what has happened. I know that I can own up to my wrong doings as well as my own transgressions.

If you really care about someone but know that there isn’t anything you can do at that moment, is to let them go and hope one day they’ll come back or each other’s paths will cross again. There are so many things I want to say but just can’t seem to find the words to say it. Those friends who encouraged this are not surprised that I would fall back into a habit, but all they want for me is to be happy. A part of me isn’t happy about how things left, but another part of me is really glad it happened. Growing up is hard but no one ever said it was going to be easy.

This literally sounds like I’m just running around the issue and not facing it head on. But, what’s the point? I’ve said my peace and have tried to move on. Communication is a two way street, though I like taking the beaten path or at least a one way street. There is less to worry about but there is a lot of assumptions, misinformation and misconceptions. 

I guess what I’m trying to say is “I’m sorry,” I’m sorry to myself and I’m sorry to the situation. Am I mad that it happened, no, it has been a great time soul searching and really know what I want. So I guess what I want is forgiveness. I forgive myself but will I be forgiven for what has happened? Only time will tell and I just hope that I can just add this moment to another chapter of my life. 

Will I expect anything to come from this? No, but hopefully with me vaguely clearing the air, the message comes across to those loud and clear. If not, at least I can say that I’m happy with where I am and only hope for the best in others. Having hate is unnecessary energy and a waste of time. Value those who care about you and value them right back with the same if not more. Here’s hoping I’m valued because i know I value others and I do not like having hate towards others. 

On that note, I’m ready for my vacation and time away from the city!

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Arts Advocacy Day 2015

#AAD15
"Advocacy must be a part of your daily mission," words spoken by Jay Dick the Senior Director of State and Local Government Affairs from Americans for the Arts (AFTA) in the opening of this year's Arts Advocacy Day. With over 550 advocates from 48 states it was great to see so many people passionate about advocating for the arts. Being able to take this opportunity to travel to Washington D.C., speak with our government officials and advocate for the arts was such a great experience in learning why I love doing what I do as well as continuing to fight to have the next generation to have the same opportunities that I was given. Even though this was my first time attending the event, this was not the first time I've spoken to my elected officials about advocating for the arts as well as having my voice heard.
To read more of what I wrote go to the Educational Theatre Association page.
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Transformation

It's been a couple months since I've updated here.

I'd like to think the year is getting off to a great start, I've put up my website (www.whoismarkdrum.com), I'm dancing in a showcase at Alvin Ailey, I'm attending this year's Arts Advocacy Day in Washington D.C., and I'm relearning my native language.

Change is never easy and doesn't happen overnight. It takes time and I'm continuing to make the positive changes I want in my life. I can say I'm learning from experiences whether it was good or bad, I can admit when I'm at fault or was wrong and I'm just overall trying to be happy.

Isn't that what everyone wants? To be happy?

I can say that I'm keeping up with my resolutions and continuing to find more reasons why I love where I am. The next few months I've filled my calendar with events and I've even scheduled a little vacation in between! However I'm still pursuing acting and I say that I'm a blogger but I haven't blogged much. So hopefully more post will come to fruition and I'll continue to share my story to those who want to read.

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My website!

I finally decided that this year would be the year I would put my professional website up. It will house my acting and photography stuff.

I'll still use this to blog and to post photos too.

But I'm glad that I'm getting my resolutions for this year in motion.

Progress, slowly but surely!

Check it out

www.whoismarkdrum.com

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2015 New Year's Resolution

So keeping with my resolutions from the past few years, I'm adding some new ones.

1. Travel the world - I mentioned yesterday that I renewed my passport and I really want to explore the world...I'm 26, single and I haven't really seen the world except for the Philippines, Canada and the US.

Places I'd love to travel to
Europe - literally almost every country on the continent
Brazil - because I have friends from there
South Africa - one of my favorite artists is from here
Australia - I want to see the Outback, check out the Sydney Opera House and explore the island continent
New Zealand - visit Middle Earth lol
Japan - home of Pokemon
China - see the Great Wall, try and navigate through a place with over a billion people populating the country

2. Do some video blogging and start a podcast with a friend

3. Making mistakes, learning to forgive and letting go - So in keeping with ending the day on a positive note, I'm adding this as a self reminder that it's ok not to be perfect and it's the imperfections that makes us stronger.

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With these additions I'm optimistic 2015 will be a good year!

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Opportunities Abound

It's a new month and I'm really excited because I've just been working hard to pursue what I love and it's slowly coming together.

I'm part of an AMAZING organization, the Educational Theatre Association (EdTA) and this year I've finally paid my dues (literally) to become a professional member. I had been a part of the organization through the International Thespian Society as a Junior Thespian (Troupe #88331) and Thespian (#Troupe 6513). Now living in New York, I've been asked by the Chapter Directors of the state to be the new Student Thespian Officer (STO) Coordinator. Which I was thrilled to have been asked and honored to have been consider. I of course humbly accepted and now I'm getting to work with a great group of kids. Though I'm still relatively new to the role, I have plenty of leadership experience and hope that I can make an impact.

Also with the organization, since the National Festival, held every year at the University of Nebraska - Lincoln, I've been making a push to reach out to other state festivals/conferences to help out. I'm happy to say that I'll be getting to go to the Georgia Thespian Conference in February to teach Beginning Hip Hop. I'm really excited for the opportunity and it'll be my first time visiting the GA Thespian Conference. Hopefully this will be the beginning of more to come! Here's a link of me dancing during a Hip Hop Class at Alvin Ailey taught by David Terry to see my moves.

I also had the privilege last month to help out with Broadway Cares/Equity Fights Aids annual Flea Market. It was great getting to be a part of the event and help out! So many theatre goers at the event supporting the cause! Here's a pic from the event, where I was at the EdTA table along with this year's International Thespian Officers (ITO)

Last month I made my debut on a New York Theatre at The Flea Theatre performing in #serials@theflea in a show called, "A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Dragon," by A.J. Ditty. The best part of doing it was the show was selected to come back this month and I'll get to perform with it (hopefully) in two weeks. It just needs to survive this next week and I have a good feeling it will! The writing and the cast has been great! Plus the audience has been very receptive and loving it! However it will have to place in the top three against four other shows!



I've also been cast in another Flea Production in The Cutthroat Series: Grand Guignol Duels - Night Terrors in the show "The Blind." I'm excited for another great opportunity with this theatre community. I look forward to the rehearsals and the experience! 

Besides my theatre involvements, I've finished another year of blogging as a freelance writer for CBS Detroit for the show Big Brother. Now that it's been announced for two more season, only continues to fuel my desire to be on the show! But I'm thankful for the opportunity that I've had to write and even though I'm not getting paid for it, I'm doing it for the experience. Plus the byline isn't so bad as well as the exposure I've gotten. I love reading the comments (both positive, negative and random) as well as emails from fans of the show. I get into weekly conversations with a friend of mine who now lives in Canada about the show! Check out all my articles on CBS Detroit!

My job has been good too! I've been giving the opportunity to train the new hires as they start with the company. It's always great being able to mentor and resource for my new co-workers. Plus I'm thankful my job has been able to work with my passions of acting and be able to have a "survival job" and do what I love. 

This weekend I head back to Michigan (or home you could say) to be the photographer for a friend's wedding. I am honored and excited for this opportunity. This will be my third wedding I'll be photographing. I'm just hoping the rain won't be an issue as this will be my first outdoor wedding I'll be doing, but rain or shine I will be capturing the moments! I look forward to the challenge!



My "Dear Anonymous," post was very therapeutic and much needed. I was finally able to get all the emotions I wanted to get out. But it's shown me that it's ok to make mistakes, friends come and go as well as you can lose touch with some but then pick up where you left off. Ironically after I wrote that post I looked over it and thought, "Man this sounds like a good monologue," and laughed.

But keeping up with my New Year's Resolution, to always stay positive which hasn't been easy however many of my coworkers are annoyed with my positivity so I must be doing something right! 

All in all, NYC was the right decision. I may be working my butt off, but I know that with determination, drive and passion I can achieve my goals and dreams. Though it may be in a different form, I take all the experiences and learn something from them. Again trying to stay positive. Who wants to be sad and negative? I know I don't!

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In Flight Recap

After my Oscars predictions, I pretty much fell off the from blogging, not because I didn't want to, but because I just didn't. But I'll try and recap what has happened since then...

March: 

My Grandlittle and very good friend came to visit as well as perform in his senior showcase in NYC. It was great to see him and know that I'll have another friend coming to the city! We also caught "A Gentleman's Guide to Love & Murder," which is nominated for 10 awards! Fun fact a former professor is a part of the talented group and it's great to see this show doing well. If you get the chance to see it, you should!


While my GrandLittle was visiting, a friend from Michigan was also in town for a conference and I was able to catch up with her.

I also auditioned for a Broadway show that featured a hip hop dance audition, which was interesting because the musical typically doesn't have hip hop in it. The audition was so much fun and it got me really addicted to the song they used for the piece.

Since I attended nine of the same theatre festival, I have made countless friends and I had the great opportunity to catch up with a one of them. It had been over seven years since we last met up.

April:

On the 1st of April, which is also known as April Fools, I entered the Book of Mormon lottery for NY residents, to win discounted tickets for the following day's performance. To my luck I had won, which I thought was first a prank, but turned out to be a great surprise! I was able to go and bring a friend to the show. It was also my friend's first Broadway musical and they and definitely enjoyed it!



I decided on a whim to go and visit my friend in DC to see the Cherry Blossom Festival. It was my first time in DC and I had a great time! I even got to catch up with my Senior RA from my first year at my university as well as another friend. 

For Easter I was able to spend some time with family and meet some new relatives in the same process. With work my schedule, I now have the weekend off, so I was able to catch up with family and friends who normally work a 9-5/Mon-Friday job. 

Went to the New York International Auto Show with some co-workers from work. I had mentioned to some that I really wanted to go and it would be my first time going in the City. I have gone to the North American International Auto Show in Detroit, but wanted to see what NY had to offer. There were definitely some similarities as well as differences. Also was a great opportunity to hang out with co-workers outside of work and make new friends!

That's pretty much what has been happening, it doesn't seem like much but after writing it all down, I can say I've kept myself busy and look forward to this month as well as what the rest of the year brings.

Oh and I also started the process of straightening my teeth, meaning I got braces. I have overcrowding in my teeth as well as an interesting bite. So I finally made the decision to get them fixed. Definitely worth the investment and luckily I'll have them off in two years. Though definitely changes the types of roles I'll go for, but again will be worth it in the long run. I'm thankful to have a job that has a good dental plan and I'm able to make this investment affordable.

I'm currently on my way back to my Alma Mater to wish one of my Little, GrandLittle, fraternity brothers and friends the best as they graduate today and tomorrow! 

(Hopefully I'll be able to add more pictures later)

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A New Year's Resolutions

Happy New Year!

Although the last day of 2013 ended on a sour note, I'm feeling optimistic and positive about this year! Even though it's just another day, it's a new year and with a new year resolutions!

Last Year's Resolutions (& If I stuck to it):
1. Blog every day - whether it be a short or long or somewhere in between I shall blog. This will help me just look back at the day and to reflect. Plus I enjoy just rambling and a story usually ensues.
Now I definitely tried for the first few months but it just inevitably didn't last. 

2. Work Out  - Generic yes, but I shall stick with it. I did good the past few months so I'm going to continue with it. Luckily I am able to go to a gym that's near my work and where I live so I can't really complain about not having time when the gym is right there. Also when it gets warmer running outside
I had a good routine for a while, fell off then got back on but then fell off. 

3. Find someone - Let's be honest we all want to be in a relationship so I think this year will be a good year. Granted I've to stick myself out their and just go for it so we'll see how this one goes.
Tried, didn't happen.

4. Continue to pay debt - We all have bills and this isn't going away until it's all paid for. So good resolution right?!?
I actually did and still have debt but it's getting less!

5. Positivity - End the day on a good note as well as start the day with the expectation that it will be a good day. Trying not to let the negative get me down or stress me out.

I actually did this too! 
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What I learned from these resolutions, some were very overly ambitious but with a tweak or two here are my resolutions this year:

1. Continue to pay off debt - Since I deferred my student loan debt for a few months, I've increased some amount but it's not going to stop me from getting my debt paid off!

2. Positivity - Even though I don't acknowledge this everyday, I know that this has been a good resolution and nobody likes negative people, right? Right!

3. Be Healthy & Fit - Instead of committing to work out, I just want to be healthy and fit! So going to the gym will definitely be a part of this resolution but it's about feeling good about myself physically. 

4. Find someone - They're out there somewhere and it'll only happen if I just let it happen. So we'll again see how this year will go!

5. Blog when I want - I won't say everyday but when I want. If I feel inspired to blog I'll blog, but I'm not going to force myself to do it when I may just not feel like doing it. Blogging for me is a great way for me to express my thoughts and opinions. 

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Again Happy New Year!

Day 338

Well I'm 10,000 feet above the ground and I'm on my laptop flying from the east coast to the rocky mountains. 

This was my first trek back to LGA since 2008, which seems like forever ago.

Time to catch up on some blogging since I'm on a flight with literally nothing to do. Actually there are plenty of things for me to do, but I really wanted to blog!

My new place I moved into in Astoria has been great! My roommates are great and I'm away from the city to enjoy it without going too crazy. I love NYC but it's nice to have a little piece of suburbia (i.e. Trees and not just buildings). My friend whom was one of the reasons I moved to Astoria (but also I liked the neighborhood) has decided to move back home and start another chapter of their life. They want to pursue graduate school and found it best to go home. I commend them for realizing it but selfishly wish they were still here. But I know they'll do some great things!

I've had the great opportunity of auditioning for a theatre company and I'm still awaiting to hear back. I was fortunate to make it through two different callbacks and the experience has been the most rewarding. On top of the audition, I had the opportunity to apply for a position at my job as well. 

Like anyone else trying to multitask things as well as pursue multiple things at once, knows how stressful and tiring it can be, but the rewards are worth it. However the position at my job, I wasn't selected to move on but I did get something out of it, so it was a win-win.

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Never really mentioned why I'm on a plane. I'm actually going to a theatre conference in Colorado which I've been a part of for six years now helping out. I'm excited to see familiar faces and see the talent from the high school and middle school kids. I also decided to come a day early and visit my alma mater. Looking forward to seeing my college friends and fraternity brothers both old and new.

However I'm not looking forward to this sub zero temperatures. I'm thankful most of my time will be done inside. 

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I'll add some photos from the past month up as well. But the wifi on the plane isn't permitting me to do so. 

Until next time!

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Day 210

200  210 (UPDATE: I can't count...lol) days already this year! How crazy is that!?!?

As always, I've neglected to blog on here, but I had thought about posting within 30 days of the last one but that didn't turn out.

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Summer has been literally a roller coaster of emotions. I even went to ride roller coasters this past week. After going with some friends from work and going on the rides, it hit me that, it's ok to go through all the emotions, just as long as I enjoy the ride. I can't keep living in fear and I just need to take things in stride.

I have had some not so great things happen recently some of it is my own doing and some just wasn't meant to be, but I'm learning. I'm a young adult and living my life. It may not have been the life I dreamed of when growing up but it's still my life!

I think the one constant this summer has been my blogging about Big Brother! I'm literally a die-hard fan, without being too crazy, if that even makes sense. I don't subscribe to the live feeds, but I support the fan pages. Granted I should really purchase the live feeds, but that's one expense that's not worth just for three months when I've got student debt and living my life to worry about. Big Brother is that nice escape and really shows that I am a good person, even though I have a very strange fascination with being on a TV show that documents everyone's life for 24/7 for three months and trying to win $500,000. I guess you can say that's the competitor in me. I'll be really sad if the show gets cancelled, but I'll be honest, there are other reality tv shows out there, yet Big Brother has a place in my heart!

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I've been on and off the getting fit wagon. I keep seeing my friends heading to the gym and I'm here just lounging around. When I see their progress it makes me jealous and makes me get my butt into the gym. Then I remember I'm not trying to be a gym rat or a meat head. I'm just trying to feel physically fit and have a body I'm happy with. I'm slowly seeing changes and I can only hope that when I continue to keep going that I will see the results I want. My weakness at the moment is my diet and motivation. Right now my eating habits could be improved but I'm doing fine with where I am, however if I want to pack on the muscle weight, I need to change my diet and continually exercise to burn the fat and build the muscle. Let's be honest to change my diet that means I need to honestly eat more which costs money and with my current financial situation that doesn't seem like it will change anytime soon. So I'm making due with what I go. On the plus side, I'm seeing abs, people have noticed that I've been working and I'm feeling good about myself. So it's a win-win.

Until next time
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Oh and here are my blog posts for CBS Detroit for Big Brother 15!
Check them out!

Read all my blogs for Big Brother here!

P.S. I'm really excited for the new Backstreet Boys album that's being released tomorrow.

Day 177

Wow, just got done watching So You Think You Can Dance and just WOW!

This season they've set the bar high! These contestants mean business. I'm glad that the producers of this show are working their butts off to make sure the "big wigs" (aka FOX) sees how much dance is an amazing form of entertainment and this show needs to get back to two shows a week.

::stepping down from my soap box::

Now for the actual show...here's where I'm ranking the guys and girls.

Girls:
1. Amy Yakima - She had the dance of the night with her partner. It was great and she has a great personality to match her awesome dancing.
2. Jasmine Mason - Doing a dance blindfolded is skill and then having complete trust in your partner while blindfolded. Jasmine M, did great this week.
3. Jasmine Harper - Jasmin H is definitely in a power couple and both are "giants."
4. Brittany Cherry - Afro-jazz is hard but Brittany made it look easy.
5. Hayley Erbert - She may be in the middle of the pack on my list but she definitely caught my eye during this weeks piece! Hayley has swag!
6. Jenna Johnson - Safe, honestly couldn't really say it was the strongest but definitely not the weakest.
7. Makenzie Dustman - I literally was like, "Who is this girl," when she was all dolled up. But then remember she's a great dancer! However their are plenty of strong girls and she's fallen short on my list.
8. Malice Miller - I like Malice, but I fear she'll be dancing for her life. Her piece was great, she definitely matured but will it be enough to keep her in the competition. I'm predicting yes, but we'll see.
9. Mariah Spears - I want this girl Krumper to be safe but I fear she too will be in danger.
10. Alexis Juliano - She can tap but she's gotta work on her swag. I like Alexis but that piece was not up to par.

Guys
1. Fik-Shun - This guys got personality and the talent to back it up. He'll be safe but I would definitely like to see some struggle from him. Nobody can be great all the time.
2. Curtis Holland - Curtis did a great job with the hip hop piece, I was a little nervous since he was always a happy guy could he get down and dirty. He delivered.
3. Aaron Turner - If this dude is not safe, America I will flip a table and yell at everyone who voted for the other guys. He was 11 on the judges short list this season and with a twist of fate was given an opportunity to prove those judges wrong. Let's keep him in the competition to prove the judges wrong. He may not be the top person on my list but he's my FAVORITE DANCER so far! I like an underdog and his talent is endless! #TeamAaronTurner
4. Alan Bersten - Alan would be higher on my list but sadly I had to agree with the judges, I needed more emotion. He was a great partner, but I needed more. He'll definitely be safe.
5. Tucker Knox - Middle of the road performance but I know Tucker can do better. His personality shines through but I wasn't jumping up for him.
6. Paul Karmiryan - Even though Paul may have won the Armenian SYTYCD he's definitely trying to prove America he can dance. Give this guy a chance, but I know the fact he "won" another countries dance version is hindering him from advancing with some votes.
7. Jade Zuberi - I want Jade to stay in this competition but I fear there are way too many good guys (like the girls) where he's getting lost in the light. He did have a great piece this weak and he's from Michigan, I've got to support a local!
8.  Blueprint - It was good, but was it great for me, no. He'll be safe but I wouldn't be surprised if Blueprint had to dance for his life.
9. Carlos Garland - Carlos will also be dancing for his life. The Jive piece wasn't bouncing enough and personally I couldn't remember who Carlos was. Sorry to fans of him but I there are "bigger" personalities and talent in this guy pool.
10. Nico Greetham - Didn't have swag and could be his swan song. But next week is another day and he could pull an amazing redemption routine to convince this judges.



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In other news, glad to hear the announcement of Project Runway returning next month. Also new shows I've started to watch (and catch up on, since I work when these shows air) The Goodwin Games (FOX) and Devious Maids (Lifetime). I'm not ashamed to say that I'm watching a Lifetime show, but there has been "controversy" on the whole stereotyping and what not. I'm watching it as a show and they all so happened to be a certain ethnicity, big deal. Besides it's based off a Telenovela, just like many shows that air in the US. Funny that both new shows I'm watching have two actresses that have been in a show I also enjoyed but now has been off the air for three years, Ugly Betty. Ana Ortiz and Becky Newton are doing well for themselves. Too bad Vanessa Williams and Michael Urie didn't have much success, but they'll find something. Also I want America Ferrera back in my life, she needs to be in a TV series or do an Ugly Betty Movie.

Speaking of another Ugly Betty cast member, Christopher Gorham will be returning on USA's Covert Affairs next month and I'm looking forward to that. Plus I'm following him on twitter (no shame) and the locations he's traveling to, ridiculous and jealous! Also another USA show I'm glad that's back is Royal Pains and coming back next month Suits! Oh I did forget to mention Graceland is a new show I'm trying to watch. One of the show leads happens to be a Broadway vet and is now on the small screen.

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That was a lot of TV, life wise, it's a roller coaster but I'm taking it in strides and trying to stay positive and hopeful for the future!

Oh Big Brother starts at 8pm tonight! SO EXCITED!

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Day 120

Again I've neglected to blog. But it's due to lack of motivation to do it after working, then rehearsal and trying to catch up on tv shows. Granted I do enjoy to multitask but I just couldn't get myself to blog during watching tv shows or jotting down stuff down.

I did however download through the App Store, it unfortunately is not available on the droid, but it's called Momento, it's a dairy/journal app. When I gave up social media, I used that to write or you could say "blog" for my personal use. But I didn't post any of it, which I should however all the info I wrote is lost due to the fact my phone needed to be restarted without any of my saved info. I digress....Momento is a great app and I will try and use it to help motivate me blog!

Going to the gym has been slightly difficult because of my rehearsal schedule, but that doesn't excuse myself from working out. I have somehow gained 6 pounds which I'm pretty sure has been muscle and that's a success, but I want to continue to work out and be fit! In EIGHT days is Race for the Cure in Detroit and I've decided this year to run the 5K and then do the 5K walk afterwards. So that's a total of 10K and I've been running to get my endurance up. 

The show I'm currently in is "Legally Blonde the Musical," yes it's based on the book and movie. So it's been a fun experience, but I've been exhausted after each show. I manage to use any and all energy I have in the day during the show. Then afterwards I just want to veg. But I've been some great friends and continue to do what I love, THEATRE!

This past Monday, I attended the First Michigan Equity Theatre Association Conference. Which was very reaffirmed everything I learned in college and gave me confidence that I am doing what I love and I have a passion to learn! I also did their unified auditions the next day and hopefully will hear something later this year for possible opportunities (fingers crossed)
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So I'm sad to have seen Victor & Lindsay depart from DWTS. However I'm still glad to see Val & Zendaya and Aly & Mark are still in it! The finals are in two weeks! My prediction is they'll be safe for the finale! I'm predicting an ALL FEMALE celebrity final...meaning Derek & Kellie will join the already mentioned two couples into the finals. But I'm still not counting Jacoby & Karina out. Ingo & Kim are wild cards but we'll see.

Project Runway - Michelle won, the "underdog," but I really grew to like Patricia and wished she would have won. Nina Garcia seemed to be the demise to my hopes of Patricia being the winner. But that could just be editing. 

BBCAN - Congrats to Jillian, as much as I was sad to see Gary lose, she won.

The Voice - Team Adam is the clearly the strongest team! Team Blake is a close second. You can definitely tell the lack of experience from Usher & Shakira. Their teams are good, but I want to see GREAT! Song choices are important and how they're being marketed. As Adam said, it should be about the music and not the game. However it's a game and their will be losers. Only one can win the title. Luckily the "saves" from the judges are done with and it's solely up to America. I won't be surprised if Team Usher & Team Shakira go out early. However I've been wrong about America, so we'll see. I am a fan however of Michelle Chamuel on Team Usher! Quirky, Nerdy and Rock Girl is in it to win!

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More of my co-workers are leaving which makes me sad but also makes me want to kick myself in the butt to get myself where I want to be. I would love to be in NYC and pursue theatre! But I also know I want to have a job secure. Then there is also debt and wanting to not be in it. 

Being a grown up is hard, but that's life!

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Day 90

So obviously there is a big gap from Jan 26 to now....

However I am back!

So for Lent this year I decided to give up Social Media; which meant the following

I wouldn't actively participate or go on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, YouTube, Pintrest, GoodReads, Blogger, etc.

I would however still read blogs but not comment and use e-mail.

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What did I learn from all of this?

I am addicted to Social Media but I did learn how to control my addiction/obsession over it. I actually had so conversations with people outside of social media. Whether that be a face to face meeting, text messaging or phone conversation or email.

I did enjoy however not always feeling like having a need to check everyone's business on social media and posting about things going on in my life. But at the same time missed that as well since it seems like that's the only way to really keep communication going with anyone anymore.

Social media is a great outlet and I definitely wish I didn't give it up some days. However I remember that it's a privilege to have the accessibility to check always, when their are people who don't even use it or know how.

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However my life continued on through my sacrifice of Social Media, so here's what happened.


  • I did my first video submission and after countless hours of filming, editing and getting feedback....I submitted it. Then afterwards (fast forward a couple weeks) I reflected and realized I am not great at video submission and MUCH BETTER in person. Why is this? I over analyze and try too hard, but if it was a face to face audition I know I can rock it out. So it just means I need to continue to work on working for the camera. Maybe one of theses days I'll muster up the courage to do a video blog entry
  • Went to a Fairie Ball, where my friend Courtney was in a major promoter of the event and was the previous year's Fairie Queen. It was a lot of fun getting to hang out with friends and people watch but the best moment was...being crowned this year's Fairie King! I know that sounds ridiculous but I dressed up in my Fairie costume with make up and wings to win the title. However I wasn't expecting accolades to happen after. So there was a photographer at the event and of course took pictures of the event and pictures of the new Fairie King and Queen. 
    Click the photo see more from the event!
    Fast forward to the following week to hear that the pictures are online and was featured in my local newspaper. So my face was plastered online and on paper. It was kind of crazy but I literally thought nothing of it since, A) who reads newspapers still? and B) who's going to look to read about the Fairie Ball?....However I was WRONG! Turns out the director of one of my shows I was in saw it and then brought the paper to rehearsal to show me and my cast mates. THEN I go into work the next day to hear that one of my co-workers saw me in the paper. Embarrassed? YES but ASHAMED? NOPE! It was good publicity for the event and was at least flattered to hear that people I knew where excited to see me in a paper and that they knew someone in it. So as much as I was embarrassed (A LOT) I still had a fun time!

  • I went to see an advance screening of a movie I was in and It was awesome! Though it wasn't a movie premiere it felt like one. Plus it was good to see old friends and I even got a picture with one of the executive producers of the film! Such a honor to have had the great opportunity to be in a film and see all the hard work come together! 


Photo Credit: John Maiuri
Photo Credit: John Maiuri

  • I had to say "See You Later" to one of my co-workers as they transferred to another store. I can say however Ryan, has been an amazing person. I saw him as a mentor at my work and I was sad to see him go, but I know that our paths will cross again!
Photo Credit: Katie Moore
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So that pretty much catches you (the READERS of my blog, and THANK YOU) on what's going on right now! Hopefully in the near future I shall continue updating what's going on!

In the meantime, Happy Sunday, Happy Easter, Happy Zombie Jesus, Happy Day!

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Day 23

So realizing I missed day 21, I'm kinda sad, but you know what, nobody is perfect.  SUCCESS I DID BLOG day 21! However I am still keeping up with my resolutions.

Let's be honest resolutions are meant to be goals and it's ok to have "off" days.

So like me paying off debt, that is still slowly getting done and I know it's not going to get all paid off all in one day, unless I win the lottery or something.

Going to the gym has been slightly on haitus but I am wanting to go, but the fact I have been getting less hours at work I have no reason to travel close to my work. With gas prices at what they are, plus what my hours are at work, which pays my bills, I've got to be conscious of what I'm spending.

Yesterday I had my first rehearsal for Almost Maine and I'm really excited about my characters. I'm going to be doing a comedy this time around for plays. I've done a murder mystery and before that was an abstract absurdist type of play. So I'm glad I'm able to go from one genre to another.

Also I'm doing a musical and I can't wait to have rehearsal for that!

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Day Two

I had a great day today. Finally was able to sleep in and get a full night's sleep.

This past weekend I surprised my best friend Michael for his birthday.

I contacted his mom to make sure I wasn't going to come during anything important. Luckily I was able to work things out and was able to surprise him. The best part I even left subtle clues the day of the surprise. I arrived about 45min (12:45am) into his birthday and I sent him a text wishing him a Happy Birthday along with a picture of his house. I got an awesome reaction and text from it.

However I digress...

So today I contact Nike about my little error I had been receiving on my Nike+
What's really cool about Nike is that their customer support can be contact in four different ways. Email, Phone or Social Media (Facebook and/or Twitter). So I contacted them via twitter and I was lucky to get help through it. I now have a new nike fuel band (granted this is my third one, because the first one had battery issue and this last one has had hardware issue) let's hope third times the charm.

Work was good. I made a new contact and really looking forward to the possible opportunity for another job! So keeping my fingers crossed.

After work I headed over to the gym to work out. Pleasant surprise saw my co-worker with his brother working out. Always cool seeing familiar faces at the gym.

Today had been a good day! Can't wait for tomorrow! 

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Day One

So 2012 has gone and it's now 2013. It's another day, Tuesday to be exact and it has felt like any other day except it's a new year.

Here are some of my New Year's Resolutions

1. Blog every day - whether it be a short or long or somewhere in between I shall blog. This will help me just look back at the day and to reflect. Plus I enjoy just rambling and a story usually ensues.

2. Work Out  - Generic yes, but I shall stick with it. I did good the past few months so I'm going to continue with it. Luckily I am able to go to a gym that's near my work and where I live so I can't really complain about not having time when the gym is right there. Also when it gets warmer running outside

3. Find someone - Let's be honest we all want to be in a relationship so I think this year will be a good year. Granted I've to stick myself out their and just go for it so we'll see how this one goes.

4. Continue to pay debt - We all have bills and this isn't going away until it's all paid for. So good resolution right?!?

5. Positivity - End the day on a good note as well as start the day with the expectation that it will be a good day. Trying not to let the negative get me down or stress me out.

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All my resolutions are definitely achievable and not out of the ordinary. Plus it's things I've been (trying) to do already so it's not like I'm completely starting new.

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Holiday Wish List

As always, I'm neglecting to blog.

But I have however been busy working on things, whether that be for work, life or pursing to be a working actor.

Anyways, this blog entry will be about what I would love to get for the holiday season. I originally was  just thinking to tell everyone to just get me a gift card, but let's be honest. People like to get meaningful gifts to others. So here's what I'm thinking I'd like to see for myself. Yes, that may sound conceited but at least for my friend's who may be "struggle bussing" to get me something here are some ideas:

1. Business Cards - Pursing my dream of being a working actor (in both LA & NYC) I'm going to need some business cards. Granted I could easily go to a store and get the create your own, but I would really love to get some professionally made. I've already got the design concept...so if someone want to get me this that would be cool!

2. Personal Chef/Nutritionist/Personal Trainer/Food/Fuel for the gym - This might sound crazy but I'm actually starting to go to the gym to work out and as much as America is trying to usually lose weight I'm trying to gain weight in the form on muscle. So something along the lines of getting myself into shape would be nice. Plus I won't turn down food, but usually trying to gain muscle weight you need to be eating right and not just junk.

3. Apple Store Gift Card - I know I said besides a gift card but listen...my cell phone company is going to officially start getting the iPhone 5, I would really like this as a gift. Preferably the 32gb black/slate, but I'll take what I can get. Also buying it without contract/unlocked starts at $629 (the 32gb is $100 more) asking for small increments of gift cards would be so bad. The minimum amount you can buy for an Apple Store gift card is I think $15. So it's a cheap gift, but if at least 50 friends got me $15 gift cards I'd be able to get it!

4. Handmade gift - This might sound cheesy but handmade gifts are still pretty awesome. The person making it had to think of what to make and do it. I like bow ties, scarfs, gloves, blankets, hats, trinkets, w/e you can think of making I'll be happy to have. Plus handmade food...well granted that may conflict with #2 but I'd be ok with it.

5. Hanging out with friends - One of the best gifts is the company of friends. I would enjoy spending time with friends, especially during this busy time and to just take a day, hour, moment to just catch up or play some board games or eat.

There is probably more things i can think of but we'll leave it at these. Also check out my Pintrest to possibly get an idea of what to get me too. Granted I've started slowly getting into pintrest but it's a start!

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Newvember

Well it's officially November on the East Coast and I've decided that I'm going to take this month to really focus on getting in shape.
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The show I'm currently in "Woyzeck," by Georg Buchner adapted by Audra Lord being performed by The New Theatre Project has been an amazing experience! The show wraps up this Sunday, Nov 4. Performances are Thurs-Sun with two shows, 8pm & 9:30pm. 

I recently auditioned for Canton's 2013 One Acts Festival being done through TLC Productions. After braving a grueling two hours in a very chilly room I finally was able to audition for the two one acts I wanted to go for. However I had to wait a day to find out if I got cast. Fast forward and I get a phone call while at work. I was offered the role of Tim in "The Replacement" by Jacob Zinke. I was ecstatic to find out and was very honored. Looking forward to doing the show.
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I digress again, I'm going to start working out again, so I'll post my "day one" photo here later today and then we'll see my progress through the weeks. Which will accomplish multiple things; 1. Showing if I make improvements to my shape, 2. Blog more frequently, 3. Work out again and have a motivation

So we'll soon see how this goes!

I'm going to stay positive. New month and new goal!

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Coming Soon

A new update.

Lagging on blogging on here but haven't been lagging on blogging elsewhere!

Expect an update soon!

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I made a movie!

Check out this cool movie I made using iMovie and music was created using Garageband on the iPad! Special thanks to my friend Courtney for letting me film one of her dogs for this movie! Hope you guys like it!